RANGE OF EMOTIONS

Barely husband came home from work yesterday and he didn’t look well. He was down and embraced me, asking me to spend some time with him. I agreed feeling he needed to talk but knowing full well sex would be out of bounds as our latest attempt took me back to my sexual frustration times….

JEALOUSY

There has been another argument. Barely husband is growing increasingly jealous of my writing, especially of my leading man (Scott) in my book. He’s been vehemently arguing a case for the leading couple not to stay together. What pisses me off the most is that he uses Scott’s bisexuality as a reason for the split. HASN’T…

EMOTIONAL INTELLIGENCE

This will be another unplanned post. People who follow my blog know I don’t do these often. I sit down and carefully line up what I’m going to write about then I start writing in a coherent and logic way. Many years ago, I took an Emotional Intelligence test as part of the Human Resources…

BUSTED

As I mentioned in my previous post, my ghost writer persona has been busted. Barely husband has known for a while that I’ve been writing on Wattpad. Many times he tried to get me to tell him about my book and I always refused. I told him the themes would make him uncomfortable and I didn’t need…

TOTAL HONESTY

The choice barely husband made to message me on WhatsApp to tell me about how he was feeling was an interesting one. It is one of the 3Ws he began to hate and he decided to use it to reach out to me. It also gave me the opportunity, for the first time ever, to apply a total…

MISSION: WRITING

First of all, I would like to apologise to my followers for my erratic posting schedule. Then I’d like to apologise to my fellow bloggers for my very delayed reads and comments. I know you will all say it’s not a problem but maybe the apology is for my peace of mind as I really…

RELIEF

That’s all I feel as I sit home alone, still in my pyjamas, sipping on black coffee and nibbling on a piece of bread. It’s 11:30am and this would be frowned upon if barely husband was home. Especially as I am indulging in my 3W obsession to the max. Raven has next week off school;…

STORM BREWING

I feel a storm brewing. It has been quietly building up and I know it’s going to come down heavy and destructive. I am feeling low. My body senses the storm and hits me with physical exhaustion, even though my mind is fully alert. Barely husband snapped at me yesterday. It was quick and not…

WISHES

I wish you were here To hold me in your arms And take away the fear I wish I could feel your heartbeat Strong, constant and soothing Bringing peace to my troubled soul I wish I could taste your lips And the sweetness of your kiss Burning with desire I wish I could hear your…

WRITING MILESTONE #2

It is another very happy day for me: my book has reached 2000 reads! If you all remember, this seemed like a distant dream not long ago, but now it has found its public and it’s going strong. Yes, the number of reads is great, but what makes me the happiest are the comments. As…

I Crave Love…

The purest kind of love Where there is no judgement And no list of requirements     Love innocent as a child That comes from holding hands Or a beautiful smile Love you feel on your skin With the slightest touch Or the deepest connection     Love that heats up with passion And heightens…

BLOGGER RECOGNITION AWARD

I meant to post something completely different yesterday, but then I received a big shock: I was nominated for the The Blogger Recognition Award!!! My reaction was to stare at my nomination, looking just like Macauley Culkin in ‘Home Alone’. My nomination came through my friend and ‘sister’ RhapsodyBohème and her beautiful blog rhapsodyboho.wordpress.com ….

IT’S A SMALL WORLD

This Friday a terrible thing of enormous proportions happened: I cracked my phone screen! Sorry if I scared you or misled you with my first sentence (it’s a joke, relax!), but my point is that our lives nowadays are so interlinked with technology that when something like this happens, it really is like the end…

WRITING MILESTONE

I am celebrating today! My sweet story about love and fight against prejudice has surpassed 1000 reads on Wattpad. I could hardly believe my eyes when the counter reached 999. My heart was racing; I was so excited and I just couldn’t contain it. I kept on refreshing the page hoping someone (anyone!) would open…

LIVING A LIE

I am living the biggest lie and do you know the worst part? I am the only one getting hurt by it. Stuck in my eternal cycle, barely husband and I have made up again. As I explained before, I don’t hate him, there’s no abuse and he’s a good person. Our problem is that the…

PLAYLIST – SEPTEMBER 2016

As well as being a declared bookworm, I love music. It’s been part of my life since I can remember, even if my taste has drastically changed over the years and is nothing like my parents’. Maybe my mom’s but in their difficult marriage that is something else she muted herself on. I came home…

WHAT I WANT

The past few days have been loaded with feelings for me. I don’t post as much as I want because I think don’t have the time. Well, I decided to make that time. Over the past few days my ‘book’ has had a surge in views and likes. If you read my previous posts, I…

OUROBOROS

I am stuck in a vicious cycle. The calm is gone and the whole being down thing during it proved to be warranted: I was simply bracing for the next storm! And it came, not as bad as the first one, but just like a hurricane, the second wave, after the eye passes, is just…

OPPOSITES ATTRACT (?)

It’s been a very tough couple of weeks. Barely husband and I had a massive argument and then all the cards were put on the table. I told him I am trying to find myself because I don’t recognise the person in the mirror anymore. Whatever fake name I use – Anna, Danielle, Erica –…