It’s Done

Finally! I am in my new house! The purchase was completed on Thursday and I spent all day carrying boxes up and down stairs. Two lorry-full trips and a few more car trips were needed. I have bruises, cuts, grazes… You name it. I even think one of my fingers is broken. Boxes are piled…

Friends

I spent the weekend with my writer friends. Yes, the Wattpad original group. We’re not writing there anymore but our friendship is stronger than ever. We still support each other through whatever personal struggles one of us may be facing. And I wasn’t the one needing it the most. That’s new. Even if I was…

Revelation

Yesterday, I sat with Raven chatting about dating. I told her about a recent bad experience from one of my friends. She’s young and really sweet but suffers from anxiety and had problems with depression in the past. They met through an online dating App and she gushed about him non-stop. She called him dreamy…

Night Out

I went out last night with three work colleagues. It was meant to be my late birthday celebration. Wednesday is not an ideal day but that’s the day we could all make it. And we didn’t hold back. A nice Chinese dim-sum meal followed by drinks at a bar. I’m not sure what time I…

Setback

It may be bad luck, my age or the simple fact that my fitness was piss poor: my right ankle is suffering. I powered through pain on my run Monday. I had to walk Tuesday because I couldn’t do it. My ankle is sore, swollen and very red. It’s annoying. Another possible cause could be…

Author Website

My author website is finally up and running! I am very proud of it. Now I need to get my books ready for publishing, which is no easy feat. I’ll be blogging there as well, only a couple of times a month. The aim is to get people to subscribe to receive first hand news…

Three Days Running

Literally. Three days and three runs. I’m hanging on. It has to be worth it!

Big Changes

In my last post, I hinted at changes in the arrangements with Barely Husband regarding Raven. They were a possibility then but guess what? They will happen. While he was waiting for the electrician to inspect the house, he received a call from a recruiter about a job where I live. An interview was arranged…

Attachment

When Barely Husband and Raven arrived Thursday night, they came to mine. BH had agreed to be at the house for one of the million inspections the buyer has requested. Previously, I had taken time off work or kindly asked my sweet and retired neighbours to be there. He lives an hour away so it’s…

Improvement

Raven is back tonight!!! Sometime in the middle of the night, that is. I miss her. It’s good to spend a few days apart. It gives us both breathing space but we are cooler together. We’ve been talking while she’s enjoying the much better weather in Spain. She had a good time. Much better than…

Happy Easter

Happy Easter to all believers and happy holiday to the rest. I spent the day alone after dropping Raven at her dad’s yesterday. They are somewhere in Barcelona today. I can’t complain. In my humbler plans for her next week, we’re going to Anime Con in Manchester on Sunday/Monday and London on Thursday /Friday. She…

#MeToo – Assessment and Inspiration

Anyone with internet will have heard of the #MeToo movement created a few months ago to shed light on sexual abuse. It all started with Harvey Weinstein’s scandal and spread throughout the industry in Hollywood and reached us commoners. Many women shared their stories – ranging from uncomfortable requests, through narrow escapes to full on…

Almost There

I apologise again for neglecting this blog. It feels that the better my life gets, the less I need to write. It is a good thing, I know. However, I can’t help but feel bad for abandoning a baby. This blog saved my sanity in the very least. The wonderful people here still keep me…

And He Still Needs Me

Now that the house is sold, barely husband and I have both been looking for a place. I know what I want, where I want it and I won’t be swayed. He said I was aiming too high. I don’t think so. I am not settling for the bare minimum. I don’t want a crammed…

Me Being Me

I have made no secret in this blog about my sexuality. For the newcomers, I identify as pansexual. I don’t have barriers regarding sexuality or gender when falling in love. In the big context, I am who I am and I just am. I love the person regardless, even if that means someone who will…

Recovery

The hectic schedule of the past couple of weeks has caught up with me. I had a sore throat. Twice. I’m still feeling congested and that brings migraines. Ugh! Still, I powered through work. I have a job to do and I will finish it. I’m almost there. I said this before but a meeting…

Dick is Back

And I hate it! Barely husband has been really nice to me so he has to be a cunt to Raven. Pardon my English but dick is not enough. Raven had her first agent audition on Sunday. It was close to his place so it made total sense that he would take her. He suggested…

Apology

Hello lovely readers, I know I have neglected this blog for the past couple of weeks. I’m working on the launch of a new product at work and it’s been hectic. It’s nonstop all day, every day. By the time I get home, I’m exhausted. The writing I often sneak in during my lunch break…

My Life as a Comedy

I had this thought on Saturday when a lot went wrong in the morning. It wasn’t anything horrific, reason why I could see the funny side. It was a sequence of crappy stuff that piles up. First, some background: Barely husband sold his car in December ‘because he doesn’t need it.’ He walks to work,…

Future

I am positive. I have a good feeling about my future prospects, even if they may take a while to become true. If you’ve been following my blog, you will know that, back in May, I had a Tarot reading done. That reading was very positive but the span for things to happen, as I…

Lessons

There are lessons we have to learn as life teaches them. While Raven was away with her dad, in a deeply Catholic and Evangelical country, she felt in her skin what I had told her about my upbringing.  My sexuality was not welcome.  She asked a few random questions to people who would have been…

She’s Back!¬†

Raven is back! She arrived on Sunday afternoon, tired and without luggage. It got lost in the connection. It didn’t matter. She ran to me and hugged me. She said she missed me and didn’t even try to pretend she didn’t want cuddles like teenagers often do.  She has a lot of stories from her…

Meh Week

I am officially calling the week after the holidays ‘Meh Week’. Going back to work was meh. I wished I could have taken another week off. Me and probably 90% of the world population. The other 10% actually did. Never mind my unofficial stats… I was sulking all Tuesday and getting back into the rhythm…

New Year’s Day

I’m starting 2018 with something I love – music – from a band I love – Pentatonix. This song is one of my favourites. It is upbeat and encourages us to move forward, forget the past or laugh at the bad times. It speaks of friendship, of being there for and caring for each other….

Happy New Year

2017 was hard. There’s no way around it. However, as I ponder and compare how I felt at the end of 2016 to how I feel now, I am in a much better place. 2016 ended with fights and divorce threats from barely husband’s side. 2017 started with my decision to end our marriage.  It…

11 Days

I’m back home. I am tired but very happy. I can’t thank my friends enough for having me and keeping me distracted over Christmas. It would have been hard to make it alone.  We played many games, talked, baked, drank… It was all very cozy and family oriented. The spirit, while preparing everything, set the…

Tattoo Update – 2017 done

I close 2017 with 22 hours of work done. The last sitting of this year lasted only two hours and it involved a lot of shading, going over areas previously done to bring the pictures together.  I love my artist’s work. He gets me. And as Raven would say, he had his hands on me…

Happy (early) Xmas

Last night Raven and I had our early Christmas Dinner. Like last year, I prepared a traditional British roast, with all the trimmings she loves. We listened to Xmas music, then other music and ended the night laughing at Lip Sync Battle episodes and Ru Paul’s Drag Race countdowns. There were no elaborate party plans,…

Rollercoaster 

My life seems to be riding a rollercoaster, and not in a good way. There are very high highs, followed quickly by very low lows. It’s all fast paced but I’m going around in circles.  I had an amazing weekend with my friends, followed by a maddening week at work, which at least ended with…

Thanks

I would like to use this post to thank my amazing friends, who spent the weekend with me. Thank you for listening, thank you for always being there with comforting words, thank you for being so understanding.  Thank you for adapting to the circumstances with me, thank you for accepting and including Raven in our…