And so it starts…

I’ve done it! I have sent the application for divorce! Draconian UK law means divorces are granted by accusing the other party of wrongdoing, like adultery (I couldn’t believe the forms that required the naming of the person your partner was having an affair with!) or violence. UNLESS you have been separated for two years…

Sad Prospects

In my previous post, I mentioned the low prospects of me getting a date. It’s not just pessimism. I have found a partner in crime for going out. P is a former coworker who I had lost contact with during my lowest point in the separation, when I was very withdrawn and down all the…

Two Years…

This weekend marked the two year anniversary of when Barely Husband came back from his two week trip to spend the holidays with his family. When he came back, it was clear to me I had been happier without him. It was also the last time we had sex. The last time I had sex….

Happy Hogmanay!

For those who don’t know, Hogmanay is the Scots word for the last day of the year and is synonymous with the celebration of the New Year. Raven and I went to Scotland with some friends, to attend our favourite NYE celebration in Edinburgh. It was our fourth time and I am sure we will…

Merry Christmas!

It’s Christmas again and time has flown by this year. I feel much better than I did last year. There has been a lot of healing throughout the year and I have made a lot of changes to my life. The main difference, though, is that I have Raven with me. Barely husband has gone…

Friends with Benefits – Reversed

In the middle of our marriage crisis, I wrote here how Barely Husband accused me of treating him like a friend with benefits. I couldn’t deny it. A girl has needs too, you know… It may not have been the wisest on my part and as we drifted more and more, I still wanted sex,…

The Pursuit of… Fitness???

I have documented here my struggle with my shape. I don’t really want to say weight as I was still a healthy BMI and whenever I mentioned dieting, someone would say ‘You don’t need that! You look great!” The truth is, I had become very unhealthy, living on quick fixes and ready meals. This took…

DFM is two!

One of the things I missed during my absence from the blogsphere was my own blogversary. DIARY OF A FAILED MARRIAGE IS TWO! My baby is a toddler and my life has changed a lot. For the better. Exhaustion episodes, crying for no reason and fear of the unknown are not part of my days…

A First Meeting

This weekend, after moving and being left bruised and sore, I went to London to meet someone special; someone very special. She’s a fellow WordPress blogger from America who has become a dear friend. The first I have ever met in person. She has recently gone through a divorce herself and often offered me support…

It’s Done

Finally! I am in my new house! The purchase was completed on Thursday and I spent all day carrying boxes up and down stairs. Two lorry-full trips and a few more car trips were needed. I have bruises, cuts, grazes… You name it. I even think one of my fingers is broken. Boxes are piled…

I Hate Moving

House buying in the UK is a fucking pain in my arse! It gets worse every time I do it. I hate over demanding buyers and I hate slow as fuck sellers. I hate solicitors. I hate packing. It’s been far too many months of non-stop stress and I’m tired. I’m lashing out and not…

Family

Raven came back from France full of stories. She loved the trip, even the almost 24h coach ride. I would have too, if I was a teenager, joined by twenty something other rowdy teenagers. Lol! She wants to go again next year! Then my dad arrived on Saturday. I hadn’t seen him in eight years….

Night Out

I went out last night with three work colleagues. It was meant to be my late birthday celebration. Wednesday is not an ideal day but that’s the day we could all make it. And we didn’t hold back. A nice Chinese dim-sum meal followed by drinks at a bar. I’m not sure what time I…

Attraction

I have mentioned here before that when I am attracted to someone, I just am. I’m not bound by gender or sexual orientation. There’s no reasoning behind it. Or is there? Last time I wrote about it, it happened at London’s Anime Con and it was a younger woman. I had eyes for no one…

Birthday Celebration

Saturday was my birthday! I chose to celebrate by taking mom and Raven to the local Fake Festival. BEST. DECISION. EVER!!! If you don’t know what a Fake Festival is, it’s a music festival with tribute bands only. We saw the likes of Really Hot Chilli Peppers, Kazabian and The Fillers. Rock is my music…

Three Days Running

Literally. Three days and three runs. I’m hanging on. It has to be worth it!

Big Changes

In my last post, I hinted at changes in the arrangements with Barely Husband regarding Raven. They were a possibility then but guess what? They will happen. While he was waiting for the electrician to inspect the house, he received a call from a recruiter about a job where I live. An interview was arranged…

Attachment

When Barely Husband and Raven arrived Thursday night, they came to mine. BH had agreed to be at the house for one of the million inspections the buyer has requested. Previously, I had taken time off work or kindly asked my sweet and retired neighbours to be there. He lives an hour away so it’s…

Improvement

Raven is back tonight!!! Sometime in the middle of the night, that is. I miss her. It’s good to spend a few days apart. It gives us both breathing space but we are cooler together. We’ve been talking while she’s enjoying the much better weather in Spain. She had a good time. Much better than…

Last Night

Last night, as you already know, I was home alone, sipping red wine and writing a sex scene for my new story. It doesn’t take a genius to imagine I was horny. I am a very sexual person and I haven’t had any action in over a year (not couting the artificial action I often…

Happy Easter

Happy Easter to all believers and happy holiday to the rest. I spent the day alone after dropping Raven at her dad’s yesterday. They are somewhere in Barcelona today. I can’t complain. In my humbler plans for her next week, we’re going to Anime Con in Manchester on Sunday/Monday and London on Thursday /Friday. She…

Almost There

I apologise again for neglecting this blog. It feels that the better my life gets, the less I need to write. It is a good thing, I know. However, I can’t help but feel bad for abandoning a baby. This blog saved my sanity in the very least. The wonderful people here still keep me…

I BOUGHT A HOUSE

Finally! A new house come on the market Wednesday evening. I called to arrange a viewing first thing Thursday morning. The viewing was confirmed for the same day. Raven and I both loved it. We had a really good feeling about it. Today, I made an offer. I didn’t want to lose it. It was…

And He Still Needs Me

Now that the house is sold, barely husband and I have both been looking for a place. I know what I want, where I want it and I won’t be swayed. He said I was aiming too high. I don’t think so. I am not settling for the bare minimum. I don’t want a crammed…

Me Being Me

I have made no secret in this blog about my sexuality. For the newcomers, I identify as pansexual. I don’t have barriers regarding sexuality or gender when falling in love. In the big context, I am who I am and I just am. I love the person regardless, even if that means someone who will…

Anime Con

Last weekend Raven and I took a train to London to attend the Anime and Gaming convention. It is nerdy, quirky, a little wacko and lots of fun. She was Alice from Madness Returns and I was a modern day Assassin (yes, I mean Assassins Creed). Under my hoodie was a Tokyo Ghoul t-shirt I…

Happy Valentine’s Day

It is a nice day. I enjoy doing something special on Valentine’s day. As a typical Taurus, my perfect date would most likely consist of tasty food and a good amount of alcohol while talking looking into the loved one’s eyes. I honestly don’t need much more than that. Well, add great sex afterwards and…

Recovery

The hectic schedule of the past couple of weeks has caught up with me. I had a sore throat. Twice. I’m still feeling congested and that brings migraines. Ugh! Still, I powered through work. I have a job to do and I will finish it. I’m almost there. I said this before but a meeting…

Dick is Back

And I hate it! Barely husband has been really nice to me so he has to be a cunt to Raven. Pardon my English but dick is not enough. Raven had her first agent audition on Sunday. It was close to his place so it made total sense that he would take her. He suggested…

My Life as a Comedy

I had this thought on Saturday when a lot went wrong in the morning. It wasn’t anything horrific, reason why I could see the funny side. It was a sequence of crappy stuff that piles up. First, some background: Barely husband sold his car in December ‘because he doesn’t need it.’ He walks to work,…