Stray Memory

It’s funny how, occasionally, old things you had completely forgotten about simply pop into your mind. This memory came back to me today. It was 2006 and we were in a family gathering. Barely husband, a little Raven and I had gone to visit my dad’s side of the family across the country. We were…

Almost There

I apologise again for neglecting this blog. It feels that the better my life gets, the less I need to write. It is a good thing, I know. However, I can’t help but feel bad for abandoning a baby. This blog saved my sanity in the very least. The wonderful people here still keep me…

I BOUGHT A HOUSE

Finally! A new house come on the market Wednesday evening. I called to arrange a viewing first thing Thursday morning. The viewing was confirmed for the same day. Raven and I both loved it. We had a really good feeling about it. Today, I made an offer. I didn’t want to lose it. It was…

Great Weekend

Last weekend I had my long awaited girly time. My friends (still the Wattpad group) came to mine on Friday. We had a big scare with the huge amount of snow (for UK standards, which is very little for many countries) falling since Wednesday, traffic going mental and trains being cancelled. We spent 24 hours…

And He Still Needs Me

Now that the house is sold, barely husband and I have both been looking for a place. I know what I want, where I want it and I won’t be swayed. He said I was aiming too high. I don’t think so. I am not settling for the bare minimum. I don’t want a crammed…

Me Being Me

I have made no secret in this blog about my sexuality. For the newcomers, I identify as pansexual. I don’t have barriers regarding sexuality or gender when falling in love. In the big context, I am who I am and I just am. I love the person regardless, even if that means someone who will…

Anime Con

Last weekend Raven and I took a train to London to attend the Anime and Gaming convention. It is nerdy, quirky, a little wacko and lots of fun. She was Alice from Madness Returns and I was a modern day Assassin (yes, I mean Assassins Creed). Under my hoodie was a Tokyo Ghoul t-shirt I…

Happy Valentine’s Day

It is a nice day. I enjoy doing something special on Valentine’s day. As a typical Taurus, my perfect date would most likely consist of tasty food and a good amount of alcohol while talking looking into the loved one’s eyes. I honestly don’t need much more than that. Well, add great sex afterwards and…

Recovery

The hectic schedule of the past couple of weeks has caught up with me. I had a sore throat. Twice. I’m still feeling congested and that brings migraines. Ugh! Still, I powered through work. I have a job to do and I will finish it. I’m almost there. I said this before but a meeting…

Dick is Back

And I hate it! Barely husband has been really nice to me so he has to be a cunt to Raven. Pardon my English but dick is not enough. Raven had her first agent audition on Sunday. It was close to his place so it made total sense that he would take her. He suggested…

Mortgage Deal or No Deal

With the house being on the market for almost 8 months and Barely Husband having to renew his rental agreement yet again (it’s every 6 months), he came up with the solution of passing the mortgage to my sole name to free up his credit to buy a property. A one bedroom flat is not…

Apology

Hello lovely readers, I know I have neglected this blog for the past couple of weeks. I’m working on the launch of a new product at work and it’s been hectic. It’s nonstop all day, every day. By the time I get home, I’m exhausted. The writing I often sneak in during my lunch break…

My Life as a Comedy

I had this thought on Saturday when a lot went wrong in the morning. It wasn’t anything horrific, reason why I could see the funny side. It was a sequence of crappy stuff that piles up. First, some background: Barely husband sold his car in December ‘because he doesn’t need it.’ He walks to work,…

Future

I am positive. I have a good feeling about my future prospects, even if they may take a while to become true. If you’ve been following my blog, you will know that, back in May, I had a Tarot reading done. That reading was very positive but the span for things to happen, as I…

Online Dating

This has become my fun lately. I went through a few sites and Apps, not hoping to find anyone, to be honest. I have taken to creating profiles and checking the neighbourhood. What I find only reinforces my idea that these are full of people just looking for a quickie.  Still, after a few glasses…

A Little Naughty Fun

Soooooo, Raven and I were having a little fun last night and, I’m not entirely sure how, we came up with the idea of me creating a dating profile using the App Barely Husband registered with (the one she found by accident) to find him there (just to see it, no action). I created the…

Lessons

There are lessons we have to learn as life teaches them. While Raven was away with her dad, in a deeply Catholic and Evangelical country, she felt in her skin what I had told her about my upbringing.  My sexuality was not welcome.  She asked a few random questions to people who would have been…

She’s Back!Β 

Raven is back! She arrived on Sunday afternoon, tired and without luggage. It got lost in the connection. It didn’t matter. She ran to me and hugged me. She said she missed me and didn’t even try to pretend she didn’t want cuddles like teenagers often do.  She has a lot of stories from her…

Meh Week

I am officially calling the week after the holidays ‘Meh Week’. Going back to work was meh. I wished I could have taken another week off. Me and probably 90% of the world population. The other 10% actually did. Never mind my unofficial stats… I was sulking all Tuesday and getting back into the rhythm…

Happy New Year

2017 was hard. There’s no way around it. However, as I ponder and compare how I felt at the end of 2016 to how I feel now, I am in a much better place. 2016 ended with fights and divorce threats from barely husband’s side. 2017 started with my decision to end our marriage.  It…

9 Days

I had a good day again. I slept fine, ate well and didn’t drink. I had one glass too many last night and instigated another wild conversation with my friends. Somehow, one of them ended up suggesting that I have a threesome with a gay couple who lives close to my house.  I’ll spare you…

11 Days

I’m back home. I am tired but very happy. I can’t thank my friends enough for having me and keeping me distracted over Christmas. It would have been hard to make it alone.  We played many games, talked, baked, drank… It was all very cozy and family oriented. The spirit, while preparing everything, set the…

New Year Resolution

I love my friends! This is a sample from one of our conversations. When I say there are no barriers, I mean it. No filter!  Only names removed. πŸ˜‰ πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚ Hope it makes sense! 

14 days

I made it to my friends in Belgium. They are like family to me and there’s a lot of love. I was almost sleepwalking at the end of the day yesterday. All the rushing to Raven, not sleeping much and driving to the airport at 5am drained me.  Today, we have been preparing the Christmas…

17 Becomes 16

I write this as I lie in bed next to Raven. Nothing drastic happened but I gained another evening with her. Barely husband decided to go out with friends and she would be alone. I decided to be with her. He had been trying to get me to come to his and spend the night…

TWO WEEKS

17 days, actually. That’s how long Raven will be away. We spent half afternoon together yesterday and went out for a meal together before I dropped her off. She was tense, upset, she didn’t want to go. She’s scared of the fights that are bound to happen between her dad and his mother. She can’t…

Happy (early) Xmas

Last night Raven and I had our early Christmas Dinner. Like last year, I prepared a traditional British roast, with all the trimmings she loves. We listened to Xmas music, then other music and ended the night laughing at Lip Sync Battle episodes and Ru Paul’s Drag Race countdowns. There were no elaborate party plans,…

Happy Anniversary… Not!

I have blogged before about how both Barely Husband and I were terrible at remembering our wedding anniversary. It has become one of those ironic things in life that, since we split last year, I have remembered it both times. It was yesterday and the date kept on staring back at me all day long….

Compensation

Raven returned from the weekend with her dad happy for the first time in weeks. She said he was in a good mood for a change.  It seems making me miserable makes him happy.  Fuck him. 

RollercoasterΒ 

My life seems to be riding a rollercoaster, and not in a good way. There are very high highs, followed quickly by very low lows. It’s all fast paced but I’m going around in circles.  I had an amazing weekend with my friends, followed by a maddening week at work, which at least ended with…