Sad Prospects

In my previous post, I mentioned the low prospects of me getting a date. It’s not just pessimism. I have found a partner in crime for going out. P is a former coworker who I had lost contact with during my lowest point in the separation, when I was very withdrawn and down all the…

Merry Christmas!

It’s Christmas again and time has flown by this year. I feel much better than I did last year. There has been a lot of healing throughout the year and I have made a lot of changes to my life. The main difference, though, is that I have Raven with me. Barely husband has gone…

Time flies…

Last time I scolded myself for letting two months go by without posting. Well, this time it’s been almost three months. I hadn’t even realised it. Things have improved dramatically in my end. Barely husband is gone. I helped him find a new house and negotiate the terms of a rental agreement for the property…

More Pride

As you know, I went to Doncaster Pride by myself as Raven was away with her dad in Spain. She was very upset she was going to miss the festival for the second year. I was upset too because I really wanted to share the experience with her. Suddenly Manchester popped in my head. I…

DFM is two!

One of the things I missed during my absence from the blogsphere was my own blogversary. DIARY OF A FAILED MARRIAGE IS TWO! My baby is a toddler and my life has changed a lot. For the better. Exhaustion episodes, crying for no reason and fear of the unknown are not part of my days…

A First Meeting

This weekend, after moving and being left bruised and sore, I went to London to meet someone special; someone very special. She’s a fellow WordPress blogger from America who has become a dear friend. The first I have ever met in person. She has recently gone through a divorce herself and often offered me support…

It’s Done

Finally! I am in my new house! The purchase was completed on Thursday and I spent all day carrying boxes up and down stairs. Two lorry-full trips and a few more car trips were needed. I have bruises, cuts, grazes… You name it. I even think one of my fingers is broken. Boxes are piled…

Friends

I spent the weekend with my writer friends. Yes, the Wattpad original group. We’re not writing there anymore but our friendship is stronger than ever. We still support each other through whatever personal struggles one of us may be facing. And I wasn’t the one needing it the most. That’s new. Even if I was…

Revelation

Yesterday, I sat with Raven chatting about dating. I told her about a recent bad experience from one of my friends. She’s young and really sweet but suffers from anxiety and had problems with depression in the past. They met through an online dating App and she gushed about him non-stop. She called him dreamy…

Family

Raven came back from France full of stories. She loved the trip, even the almost 24h coach ride. I would have too, if I was a teenager, joined by twenty something other rowdy teenagers. Lol! She wants to go again next year! Then my dad arrived on Saturday. I hadn’t seen him in eight years….

Night Out

I went out last night with three work colleagues. It was meant to be my late birthday celebration. Wednesday is not an ideal day but that’s the day we could all make it. And we didn’t hold back. A nice Chinese dim-sum meal followed by drinks at a bar. I’m not sure what time I…

See You Again

I did it! My second novel ‘See You Again’ is finished on Wattpad. I hit the completed button and of course I was a little emotional. Now I start another chapter of my writing story. Make Love Your Goal is unpublished and I have to start the mammoth task of rewriting it into a series….

Week Off

Raven leaves tonight to France for a week. That’s part of her French Exchange program at school. She’s not looking forward to the 18 hour coach trip but she’s looking forward to good food, nice weather and a visit to the beach. I’m not looking forward to being away from her but I’m looking forward…

Attraction

I have mentioned here before that when I am attracted to someone, I just am. I’m not bound by gender or sexual orientation. There’s no reasoning behind it. Or is there? Last time I wrote about it, it happened at London’s Anime Con and it was a younger woman. I had eyes for no one…

Birthday Celebration

Saturday was my birthday! I chose to celebrate by taking mom and Raven to the local Fake Festival. BEST. DECISION. EVER!!! If you don’t know what a Fake Festival is, it’s a music festival with tribute bands only. We saw the likes of Really Hot Chilli Peppers, Kazabian and The Fillers. Rock is my music…

Author Website

My author website is finally up and running! I am very proud of it. Now I need to get my books ready for publishing, which is no easy feat. I’ll be blogging there as well, only a couple of times a month. The aim is to get people to subscribe to receive first hand news…

Attachment

When Barely Husband and Raven arrived Thursday night, they came to mine. BH had agreed to be at the house for one of the million inspections the buyer has requested. Previously, I had taken time off work or kindly asked my sweet and retired neighbours to be there. He lives an hour away so it’s…

Improvement

Raven is back tonight!!! Sometime in the middle of the night, that is. I miss her. It’s good to spend a few days apart. It gives us both breathing space but we are cooler together. We’ve been talking while she’s enjoying the much better weather in Spain. She had a good time. Much better than…

Last Night

Last night, as you already know, I was home alone, sipping red wine and writing a sex scene for my new story. It doesn’t take a genius to imagine I was horny. I am a very sexual person and I haven’t had any action in over a year (not couting the artificial action I often…

#MeToo – Assessment and Inspiration

Anyone with internet will have heard of the #MeToo movement created a few months ago to shed light on sexual abuse. It all started with Harvey Weinstein’s scandal and spread throughout the industry in Hollywood and reached us commoners. Many women shared their stories – ranging from uncomfortable requests, through narrow escapes to full on…

Stray Memory

It’s funny how, occasionally, old things you had completely forgotten about simply pop into your mind. This memory came back to me today. It was 2006 and we were in a family gathering. Barely husband, a little Raven and I had gone to visit my dad’s side of the family across the country. We were…

And He Still Needs Me

Now that the house is sold, barely husband and I have both been looking for a place. I know what I want, where I want it and I won’t be swayed. He said I was aiming too high. I don’t think so. I am not settling for the bare minimum. I don’t want a crammed…

Me Being Me

I have made no secret in this blog about my sexuality. For the newcomers, I identify as pansexual. I don’t have barriers regarding sexuality or gender when falling in love. In the big context, I am who I am and I just am. I love the person regardless, even if that means someone who will…

Anime Con

Last weekend Raven and I took a train to London to attend the Anime and Gaming convention. It is nerdy, quirky, a little wacko and lots of fun. She was Alice from Madness Returns and I was a modern day Assassin (yes, I mean Assassins Creed). Under my hoodie was a Tokyo Ghoul t-shirt I…

Happy Valentine’s Day

It is a nice day. I enjoy doing something special on Valentine’s day. As a typical Taurus, my perfect date would most likely consist of tasty food and a good amount of alcohol while talking looking into the loved one’s eyes. I honestly don’t need much more than that. Well, add great sex afterwards and…

Recovery

The hectic schedule of the past couple of weeks has caught up with me. I had a sore throat. Twice. I’m still feeling congested and that brings migraines. Ugh! Still, I powered through work. I have a job to do and I will finish it. I’m almost there. I said this before but a meeting…

Dick is Back

And I hate it! Barely husband has been really nice to me so he has to be a cunt to Raven. Pardon my English but dick is not enough. Raven had her first agent audition on Sunday. It was close to his place so it made total sense that he would take her. He suggested…

My Life as a Comedy

I had this thought on Saturday when a lot went wrong in the morning. It wasn’t anything horrific, reason why I could see the funny side. It was a sequence of crappy stuff that piles up. First, some background: Barely husband sold his car in December ‘because he doesn’t need it.’ He walks to work,…

Future

I am positive. I have a good feeling about my future prospects, even if they may take a while to become true. If you’ve been following my blog, you will know that, back in May, I had a Tarot reading done. That reading was very positive but the span for things to happen, as I…

Online Dating

This has become my fun lately. I went through a few sites and Apps, not hoping to find anyone, to be honest. I have taken to creating profiles and checking the neighbourhood. What I find only reinforces my idea that these are full of people just looking for a quickie.  Still, after a few glasses…