CRY

On Sunday I cried, not only once, but three times. It was one of those shitty days. I woke up in the middle of the night with a dry mouth and a headache. I had a glass of wine before going to bed but that wouldn’t be enough. I took a painkiller with a glass…

The Crow and The Butterfly (pt 2)

After my Crow left me, I received yet another visitor: a Butterfly. I saw the little thing struggling on my kitchen window seal. I tried to open the window to let her out but, to my horror, she fell behind the radiator and I couldn’t see her anymore. I thought she had been lost. I carried…

FOCUS ON THE POSITIVE

I often focus on the negatives of my separation. Of course there is all the pain I went through and the problems I still have to sort, but as I start to fix my life and myself, I see the light at the end of the tunnel. I started thinking about this post as a…

The Crow and The Butterfly

Since my wonderful friend Rhapsody Bohème started writing about Spirit Animals and the messages they bring, I have started paying more attention to what’s going on around me. I’m a firm believer that the energy of the universe can be sensed and interpreted, that it can guide you through life. I don’t think the future…

Gladiator

Today I was tidying up my handbag a little. I have to do it once in a while to remove the million receipts I throw in there and to reduce the number of lipsticks I carry (let it be known half of them are Raven’s, who sneakily throws her make up in for me to…

PATIENCE

I am feeling much better. After my retail therapy and getting rid of some of the bad energy, my mood has drastically improved and I’m back to my happy mamma times. I have to keep reminding myself I need patience. When I had my Tarot reading a few months ago, I was told everything there…

NEED

I am struggling this week. I really am. I’m trying hard not to be a moody cow or Debbie Downer at home in a conscious decision because of my promise to Raven. I often stop and take a deep breath, especially when my body is giving in to the exhaustion. It has worked but it’s tough….

DECISION

I have made a tough decision. In our informal custody agreements, barely husband claimed this year Raven would spend Xmas and New Year with him. She did spend last year with me, even if only because he chose to fly last minute to his parents after an argument with me. I decided not to fight…

DREAMS

In my previous post, I mentioned dreams, more specifically dreams that put me in a good mood that continues all day. Let me try to explain. I have started writing quick notes to remind me of these dreams. There has been a recurring theme to most of them. They are centred around having a relationship…

ANOTHER LOW

It’s one of those things you can’t really explain. I had a great weekend, things went better than I could have imagined with barely husband being civil, even nice, and Raven staying with me. Suddenly, out of the blue, I had one of my exhaustion episodes. It was Sunday evening and I was drained. My…

THE BIG O

Continuation of The Missing Piece… I moved on to The Missing Piece Meets the Big O, by Shel Silverstein. I had my mouth hanging open all through it. I related so much to everything. It starts with our Missing Piece waiting for someone to come along and take it somewhere. And loads come but there’s…

A Proper Holiday

Exactly a year ago, we went on a family holiday. Things with barely husband had gotten really bad a few weeks before but I managed to calm things down enough so we could go. I was still desperately trying to fix things, I was scared and broken. The post I managed to publish was called…