Friends with Benefits – Reversed

In the middle of our marriage crisis, I wrote here how Barely Husband accused me of treating him like a friend with benefits. I couldn’t deny it. A girl has needs too, you know… It may not have been the wisest on my part and as we drifted more and more, I still wanted sex,…

I Hate Moving

House buying in the UK is a fucking pain in my arse! It gets worse every time I do it. I hate over demanding buyers and I hate slow as fuck sellers. I hate solicitors. I hate packing. It’s been far too many months of non-stop stress and I’m tired. I’m lashing out and not…

Attachment

When Barely Husband and Raven arrived Thursday night, they came to mine. BH had agreed to be at the house for one of the million inspections the buyer has requested. Previously, I had taken time off work or kindly asked my sweet and retired neighbours to be there. He lives an hour away so it’s…

Dick is Back

And I hate it! Barely husband has been really nice to me so he has to be a cunt to Raven. Pardon my English but dick is not enough. Raven had her first agent audition on Sunday. It was close to his place so it made total sense that he would take her. He suggested…

My Life as a Comedy

I had this thought on Saturday when a lot went wrong in the morning. It wasn’t anything horrific, reason why I could see the funny side. It was a sequence of crappy stuff that piles up. First, some background: Barely husband sold his car in December ‘because he doesn’t need it.’ He walks to work,…

Lessons

There are lessons we have to learn as life teaches them. While Raven was away with her dad, in a deeply Catholic and Evangelical country, she felt in her skin what I had told her about my upbringing.  My sexuality was not welcome.  She asked a few random questions to people who would have been…

She’s Back! 

Raven is back! She arrived on Sunday afternoon, tired and without luggage. It got lost in the connection. It didn’t matter. She ran to me and hugged me. She said she missed me and didn’t even try to pretend she didn’t want cuddles like teenagers often do.  She has a lot of stories from her…

Happy New Year

2017 was hard. There’s no way around it. However, as I ponder and compare how I felt at the end of 2016 to how I feel now, I am in a much better place. 2016 ended with fights and divorce threats from barely husband’s side. 2017 started with my decision to end our marriage.  It…

17 Becomes 16

I write this as I lie in bed next to Raven. Nothing drastic happened but I gained another evening with her. Barely husband decided to go out with friends and she would be alone. I decided to be with her. He had been trying to get me to come to his and spend the night…

TWO WEEKS

17 days, actually. That’s how long Raven will be away. We spent half afternoon together yesterday and went out for a meal together before I dropped her off. She was tense, upset, she didn’t want to go. She’s scared of the fights that are bound to happen between her dad and his mother. She can’t…

Happy (early) Xmas

Last night Raven and I had our early Christmas Dinner. Like last year, I prepared a traditional British roast, with all the trimmings she loves. We listened to Xmas music, then other music and ended the night laughing at Lip Sync Battle episodes and Ru Paul’s Drag Race countdowns. There were no elaborate party plans,…

Happy Anniversary… Not!

I have blogged before about how both Barely Husband and I were terrible at remembering our wedding anniversary. It has become one of those ironic things in life that, since we split last year, I have remembered it both times. It was yesterday and the date kept on staring back at me all day long….