9 Days

I had a good day again. I slept fine, ate well and didn’t drink. I had one glass too many last night and instigated another wild conversation with my friends. Somehow, one of them ended up suggesting that I have a threesome with a gay couple who lives close to my house.  I’ll spare you…

I Am Ready

Yesterday, while driving from Manchester Airport to home, I was faced with heavy snowfall over the Peak District. It wasn’t the worst but required attention. Some parts of the UK had it really bad, nevertheless, I seem to live in the snow black hole. When we get snow here, it means everywhere else was a…

11 Days

I’m back home. I am tired but very happy. I can’t thank my friends enough for having me and keeping me distracted over Christmas. It would have been hard to make it alone.  We played many games, talked, baked, drank… It was all very cozy and family oriented. The spirit, while preparing everything, set the…

New Year Resolution

I love my friends! This is a sample from one of our conversations. When I say there are no barriers, I mean it. No filter!  Only names removed. 😉 😂😂😂 Hope it makes sense! 

14 days

I made it to my friends in Belgium. They are like family to me and there’s a lot of love. I was almost sleepwalking at the end of the day yesterday. All the rushing to Raven, not sleeping much and driving to the airport at 5am drained me.  Today, we have been preparing the Christmas…

17 Becomes 16

I write this as I lie in bed next to Raven. Nothing drastic happened but I gained another evening with her. Barely husband decided to go out with friends and she would be alone. I decided to be with her. He had been trying to get me to come to his and spend the night…

TWO WEEKS

17 days, actually. That’s how long Raven will be away. We spent half afternoon together yesterday and went out for a meal together before I dropped her off. She was tense, upset, she didn’t want to go. She’s scared of the fights that are bound to happen between her dad and his mother. She can’t…

Tattoo Update – 2017 done

I close 2017 with 22 hours of work done. The last sitting of this year lasted only two hours and it involved a lot of shading, going over areas previously done to bring the pictures together.  I love my artist’s work. He gets me. And as Raven would say, he had his hands on me…

Happy (early) Xmas

Last night Raven and I had our early Christmas Dinner. Like last year, I prepared a traditional British roast, with all the trimmings she loves. We listened to Xmas music, then other music and ended the night laughing at Lip Sync Battle episodes and Ru Paul’s Drag Race countdowns. There were no elaborate party plans,…

Happy Anniversary… Not!

I have blogged before about how both Barely Husband and I were terrible at remembering our wedding anniversary. It has become one of those ironic things in life that, since we split last year, I have remembered it both times. It was yesterday and the date kept on staring back at me all day long….

Compensation

Raven returned from the weekend with her dad happy for the first time in weeks. She said he was in a good mood for a change.  It seems making me miserable makes him happy.  Fuck him. 

Rollercoaster 

My life seems to be riding a rollercoaster, and not in a good way. There are very high highs, followed quickly by very low lows. It’s all fast paced but I’m going around in circles.  I had an amazing weekend with my friends, followed by a maddening week at work, which at least ended with…

Thanks

I would like to use this post to thank my amazing friends, who spent the weekend with me. Thank you for listening, thank you for always being there with comforting words, thank you for being so understanding.  Thank you for adapting to the circumstances with me, thank you for accepting and including Raven in our…

I HATE HIM TODAY

Barely husband pulled one on me today. I didn’t see it coming. He had joked about leaving Raven with me this weekend, when he found out about me seeing my friends. That was a few weeks ago.  Today, when I got home, my daughter was all excited that her dad had called her, asking if…

WEEKEND PREPARATIONS

My friends are coming over this weekend. I can’t even explain how excited I am. These ladies mean the world to me and their friendship has helped me immensely over the past year. Incidentally, a few days ago was the anniversary of our group chat. It started as a few Wattpad authors wanting to discuss…

A Date

I wish I could go on a date. As I walked the dog tonight, I found myself laughing at my thoughts. I’m sure I looked stupid but who cares? I thought about meeting someone, walking their dog, and that I’d be suddenly asked on a date.  Well, it hasn’t happened but the thought made me…

Happy Thanksgiving 

We don’t celebrate Thanksgiving in the UK for obvious reasons, however, as most of my readers are from the US, I thought I should join in the celebration. There are many things I am thankful for, even after a very difficult couple of years. My daughter is number one on this list, of course. She’s…

I’m Back and the Game is Still on

I had a brilliant time in London. My friend and I walked around, spent money and talked. Lots! There wasn’t time for silence. We had so much to discuss, so many ideas to exchange and talk about life in general. It didn’t matter if we were walking, shopping or having drinks. It was refreshing! And…

Off to London

I’m off to London tomorrow morning. I can’t wait to spend the day with a friend, hit the Xmas markets, eat good food, have a few drinks and talk.  I need to sit down and have a good, open conversation. Forget problems exist for a moment.  London, here I come! 

Confidence Boost

I think I have mentioned here that I look younger than I am. Proof is that I turned 40 and got asked for my ID trying to buy beer at the pub a couple of months ago. That wasn’t the first time in the past few years.  My reaction? I absolutely LOVE it! After I…

Necessity

Barely husband is being nice to me because he needs me. Well, not in the sense that he NEEDS ME, more in the sense that he needs me to do a couple of things for him. I’m convinced this necessity is driving his kindness towards me and why he exploded with Raven instead.  He needs…

Claws Back Out

Things were too calm so barely husband decided to get his claws out again. Scarily, he didn’t lash out at me, he did it at Raven. She likes to talk, crack jokes and be funny a lot of the time but, like every kid her age, she has her introspective moments. She appreciates some alone…

Dependency

One of the lessons I have learned over these months of contemplation, after my split from barely husband, is that my happiness can’t depend on anyone.  It’s not an easy motto to go by, even if you know it makes total sense. Your head tells you to find happiness in the things you do but…

Frustration

This is about one thing and one, thing only: the house sale. This is one of those rare occasions when Barely Husband and I have been a team. We both need the money from the sale to move on. It’s been frustrating, to say the least. We initially signed with the Estate Agents we dealt…

Out and About 

I was out with Raven last night. We went to our favourite Tapas bar and spent the evening crushing on the three gorgeous waiters. They are too young for me and too old for her. Still, there’s no harm in looking, is there? I have big plans for the next couple of weekends. Next weekend…

Full Moon Thoughts

The full moon is coming back and I’m dreaming again. Naughty dreams. 🙈 I have finally decided to buy a new charger for my camera’s battery. I can’t find the original and I suspect barely husband may have had a ‘cleaning’ moment. Amazon has promised to deliver it for tomorrow. Fingers crossed. I want to…

Happy Halloween 

Or sort of… I wrote last year how Halloween had become mine and Raven’s holiday. Well, this year didn’t work so well. Because she spent the weekend with me in Belgium, her dad decided to have her for the week. I think it’s fair because, if she stayed with me, I’d still be at work…

Weekend Away

I have just returned from an amazing weekend in Belgium with friends who live there. It was a long weekend, filled with conversations, food and, of course, Belgian beers. These friends went to high school with me, meaning we’ve known each other for almost 30 years. We lost contact somewhere in the middle but, after…

7 Days, 7 Photos Challenge – Day 7

“Seven days. Seven black and white photos of your life. No people. No explanation. Challenge someone new each day.” I was challenged by Rhapsody Bohème. The end! 

7 Days, 7 Photos Challenge – Day 6

“Seven days. Seven black and white photos of your life. No people. No explanation. Challenge someone new each day.” I was challenged by Rhapsody Bohème. I challenge all! 😉