JEALOUSY

There has been another argument. Barely husband is growing increasingly jealous of my writing, especially of my leading man (Scott) in my book. He’s been vehemently arguing a case for the leading couple not to stay together. What pisses me off the most is that he uses Scott’s bisexuality as a reason for the split. HASN’T…

ANOTHER ARGUMENT

Raven usually walks the dog with barely husband on weekends.  During my exhaustion episode, they did so and she came back panicked and apologising for blabbering something to him. I couldn’t understand what she was saying straight away. My brain was slow and she was too fast.  After a few minutes, after she calmed down,…

BUSTED

As I mentioned in my previous post, my ghost writer persona has been busted. Barely husband has known for a while that I’ve been writing on Wattpad. Many times he tried to get me to tell him about my book and I always refused. I told him the themes would make him uncomfortable and I didn’t need…

TOTAL HONESTY

The choice barely husband made to message me on WhatsApp to tell me about how he was feeling was an interesting one. It is one of the 3Ws he began to hate and he decided to use it to reach out to me. It also gave me the opportunity, for the first time ever, to apply a total…

MISSION: WRITING

First of all, I would like to apologise to my followers for my erratic posting schedule. Then I’d like to apologise to my fellow bloggers for my very delayed reads and comments. I know you will all say it’s not a problem but maybe the apology is for my peace of mind as I really…

RELIEF

That’s all I feel as I sit home alone, still in my pyjamas, sipping on black coffee and nibbling on a piece of bread. It’s 11:30am and this would be frowned upon if barely husband was home. Especially as I am indulging in my 3W obsession to the max. Raven has next week off school;…

WISHES

I wish you were here To hold me in your arms And take away the fear I wish I could feel your heartbeat Strong, constant and soothing Bringing peace to my troubled soul I wish I could taste your lips And the sweetness of your kiss Burning with desire I wish I could hear your…

WRITING MILESTONE #2

It is another very happy day for me: my book has reached 2000 reads! If you all remember, this seemed like a distant dream not long ago, but now it has found its public and it’s going strong. Yes, the number of reads is great, but what makes me the happiest are the comments. As…

I Crave Love…

The purest kind of love Where there is no judgement And no list of requirements     Love innocent as a child That comes from holding hands Or a beautiful smile Love you feel on your skin With the slightest touch Or the deepest connection     Love that heats up with passion And heightens…

BLOGGER RECOGNITION AWARD

I meant to post something completely different yesterday, but then I received a big shock: I was nominated for the The Blogger Recognition Award!!! My reaction was to stare at my nomination, looking just like Macauley Culkin in ‘Home Alone’. My nomination came through my friend and ‘sister’ RhapsodyBohème and her beautiful blog rhapsodyboho.wordpress.com ….

IT’S A SMALL WORLD

This Friday a terrible thing of enormous proportions happened: I cracked my phone screen! Sorry if I scared you or misled you with my first sentence (it’s a joke, relax!), but my point is that our lives nowadays are so interlinked with technology that when something like this happens, it really is like the end…

WRITING MILESTONE

I am celebrating today! My sweet story about love and fight against prejudice has surpassed 1000 reads on Wattpad. I could hardly believe my eyes when the counter reached 999. My heart was racing; I was so excited and I just couldn’t contain it. I kept on refreshing the page hoping someone (anyone!) would open…

LIVING A LIE

I am living the biggest lie and do you know the worst part? I am the only one getting hurt by it. Stuck in my eternal cycle, barely husband and I have made up again. As I explained before, I don’t hate him, there’s no abuse and he’s a good person. Our problem is that the…

WHAT I WANT

The past few days have been loaded with feelings for me. I don’t post as much as I want because I think don’t have the time. Well, I decided to make that time. Over the past few days my ‘book’ has had a surge in views and likes. If you read my previous posts, I…

CALM AFTER THE STORM

I am facing a calm period in my life, so why do I feel so low? Things have been good after the monumental holiday fight. The best they have been for a very long time. Barely husband is definitely keeping his side of the deal: he’s talking, he’s interested, he’s not pushing, he’s not moaning……

LIFE AS A PASTAFARIAN

This is a little different from what I usually write but I have read so many articles on faith and religion lately that I felt inspired. There are many points of view and I always try to be respectful and sometimes it’s just better to agree to disagree. There will be some swearing and discussion…

DOOMED HOLIDAY

This is my third attempt at writing this post. I am currently on a family holiday. You may think ‘Why are you on a family holiday during such crisis?’. This thought has also crossed my mind, but, the truth is, this trip has been booked for months. Besides, there’s nothing wrong with having a break…

COURAGE, THE COWARDLY B*TCH

I AM A COWARD! There. I said it. It is something I have been ruminating this past week. I seem to chew it, swallow it and then it comes back leaving a horrible taste in my mouth but I repeat the cycle. I went through my parents ‘difficult’ marriage with a clear view that they…

QUID PRO QUO

One of the lessons you have to learn very quickly in any relationship is that, to make it work, you need to compromise. People are not the same and will always want different things. If you think about it, it could be very boring if a couple wanted exactly the same thing all the time….

OPPOSITES ATTRACT (?)

It’s been a very tough couple of weeks. Barely husband and I had a massive argument and then all the cards were put on the table. I told him I am trying to find myself because I don’t recognise the person in the mirror anymore. Whatever fake name I use – Anna, Danielle, Erica –…

How I met your Father – re-written

  I decided I didn’t like the original post I wrote, so this has been completely re-written. I apologise to the people who read the first version as I think it was quite bad… Second time lucky?   My daughter once asked me how her dad and I got together. I wish I could have…

THE REALISATION

Hello! My name is Lisa and my marriage has failed. There are a lot of feelings that come with this realisation: sadness, anger, frustration, regret… that’s the toughest one. Especially after 15 years together you can’t just regret everything. There have been lots of good moments , we have a beautiful daughter and the sex…