Last time I scolded myself for letting two months go by without posting. Well, this time it’s been almost three months. I hadn’t even realised it.
Things have improved dramatically in my end. Barely husband is gone. I helped him find a new house and negotiate the terms of a rental agreement for the property while the sale goes through.
It’s clear we’re both much, much happier. I helped him move and the mood was light and playful all the way. It’s nice to get that and remind myself why we got together in the first place.
It’s also clear to both of us that we can’t live together. It just doesn’t work. I’m not willing to compromise anymore to match his expectations. He can’t be happy without those expectations. However, this new found ‘friendship’ has helped Raven tremendously. She has been closer to her dad and they have been talking more. He’s been trying very hard to understand her and help her through her ‘troubles’ that before he would dismiss as kids’ stuff.
I still have no one but I’m more relaxed about opening myself up for opportunities. I have a few things to share and I hope not to disappear for another three months.
Today I felt compelled to post this because it would have been our wedding anniversary. I have mentioned before how both of us used to forget this day but since separating, I just seem to remember it. I don’t know why.