After the stress, accusations and acknowledgement requirements by barely husband, I made a point in distancing myself and keeping our contact to a minimum.
Every time he video called Raven, I made sure I was out of the picture, preferably in another room. When I dropped her off at his on Saturday, I left her at the building door. He came down to help her with her bag but I didn’t go in like I usually do. I didn’t want to chat.
I went straight back home and carried on with my life. MY life, doing things for my entertainment. Not having Raven around is still a downer but I made myself busy to avoid another downward spiral.
He dropped her off on Sunday and it was, once again, awkward. He came in for a coffee. I was civil, like I would be to any acquaintance. He picked some of his things that were still there and left.
When he called Raven the following day, I was around and somehow I ended up holding the phone, discussing politics and Brexit issues. Suddenly I saw tears in his eyes and he apologised. When I asked what for (I honestly didn’t know exactly what he was apologising for) he replied ‘For everything.’
I was taken aback by that. I didn’t know what to say. He continued on to say he was sorry for everything he had done to me and asked for forgiveness. I was still in shock and he begged me to forgive him.
I did. It doesn’t change anything between us but I hope he finds peace.
I am someone that holds grudges. I know it’s horrible and stupid and I do try to let it go. I believe that what you did is amazing and very good for both of you. Hating him or being angry at him is only going to hold you back. You forgive, you move pass it and suddenly you are able to live YOUR OWN LIFE. 🙂
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I don’t think I can be at peace if I don’t forgive him. I said countless times that he’s not a bad person. He has done things the wrong way and destroyed what we has between us. We can’t be together but I can respect him as my daughter’s father.
I hope he finds someone who will be who he wants and needs, just like I hope the same for me.
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Definitely… I think you are handling everything amazingly well ❤️
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Thank you! 💖💙
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I’m glad I got to read something positive today. I think you are making a path that is great for you. ❤
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Thank you 💙💖 I’m trying really hard and I hope to find happiness.
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Good. )
I hear it’s important.
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