You may have noticed from my previous post that I picked Raven up from Drama. Her dad usually does it but he had driven to Scotland and back for work and was exhausted. I noticed his voice was very rough when I called him to ask if he was going to get her.
We took the opportunity to have lunch together at one of her favourite restaurants and talk about her current K-Pop obsession.
She also had a friend’s birthday party to go to, so I offered to drive her to her dad’s after the party instead. He initially refused but over lunch texted me saying he would accept my offer.
When we got there, I immediately noticed his face. It wasn’t good. It was swollen but I decided not to mention anything in front of Raven.
Things were a bit awkward and he wanted to go out for dinner but I was still full from lunch. He said he thought I might stay over when I reminded him of the dog.
I decided to drive home as staying there wasn’t helping. He walked down with me to go to the market and buy pizzas for him and Raven. I wanted a Red Bull for the drive back.
He unloaded on me. He said he can’t live like this. He had cried all day and that’s why he couldn’t pick Raven up. He thought about running away, just disappearing without even telling us. I didn’t know what to say. In a way, I’m causing it but I’m going to be the miserable one if I go back.
I drove home and was hit by torrential rain. It was a flash rain and I remained calm. If there’s one thing my dad taught me was how to drive with surface water or mud.
When it passed, a rainbow appeared to remind me of who I am; to remind me of the beauty that only appears when light meets darkness; only when sunlight clashes with the raindrops.
I can’t change. I won’t change. I’m not looking back.