A while ago, I posted about the things I wanted from a relationship. The list was very straightforward and may seem like a romantic dream. Well, it still is my romantic dream.
However, right now, I don’t feel ready for a relationship. I don’t feel ready to be ‘on the market’ so to speak.
It is difficult. I have more time and time alone at that. It’s still not enough time to do the things that I want. I need more ‘ME’ time, definitely.
One thing I can say for sure is that it’s better to be alone than to compromise on a partner. I don’t want to do that. Not again.
So what I want, if I ever find someone to share my rags with, is:
1) Acceptance – of my choices, my sexuality and my lifestyle ;
2) Friendship – because a friend is someone who knows all about you… and still loves you. I don’t want to hide, I don’t want to be fixed. I don’t need to be fixed. I want someone who fully understands me and will be with me through thick and thin ;
3) Love – it’s that look, that touch that means everything. I want to cherish someone and be cherished in return;
4) Sexual chemistry – I cannot, by any means, compromise on this. I am a very sexual person, as I have said many times, and I need this part to be satisfied. I want someone as open to new experiences as I am. Someone who I can share my innermost desires with. Someone who will be faithful because what we share is everything.
The list is less romanticised and considerably shorter than my last. Still, I remain alone until I have any hope of having it fulfilled.