After our therapy session, barely husband went back to his psychologically aggressive behaviour. He wasn’t happy.
During the whole session he mentioned ‘sex’ as a defining factor. It may have been great from a technical point of view, especially for him, but for me it’s been lacking.
I have described before how I have struggled with finding the right type of pleasure through sex and now, more than ever, I am willing to find the type of connection I have never had before in my life.
He asked me if I really expect him to be faithful to me when I am giving him nothing. I don’t know where the courage to say what I was thinking came from but I said:
“Do what you want. I don’t care. I just don’t want to know.”
I basically gave him a ‘hall pass’ and I hope he uses it to find someone he falls madly in love with and leaves me alone.
He knows it’s over but he struggles with it. I struggle with breaking him. That’s why I agreed to counselling. So we can end it on good terms.