HALL PASS

After our therapy session, barely husband went back to his psychologically aggressive behaviour. He wasn’t happy.

During the whole session he mentioned ‘sex’ as a defining factor. It may have been great from a  technical point of view, especially for him, but for me it’s been lacking.

I have described before how I have struggled with finding the right type of pleasure through sex and now, more than ever, I am willing to find the type of connection I have never had before in my life.

He asked me if I really expect him to be faithful to me when I am giving him nothing. I don’t know where the courage to say what I was thinking came from but I said:

“Do what you want. I don’t care. I just don’t want to know.”

I basically gave him a ‘hall pass’ and I hope he uses it to find someone he falls madly in love with and leaves me alone.

He knows it’s over but he struggles with it. I struggle with breaking him. That’s why I agreed to counselling. So we can end it on good terms.

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  1. That’s the same I was hoping for years in my scenario. For him to find somebody that he could fall head over heels in love with. That might has happened and yet the comfort zone and financial security lies with me. Pathetic.

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    1. DFMGhost says:

      He’s already away, we already have two households. Financially, we are already stretching and seeing how it’s going to be. The last point would be the house. We’d need to sell it and split the money. I would move to a smaller house and get the mortgage solely on my name. I have it all thought through. I need the execution.

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