SAD BUT TRUE

It’s hardly been a week since barely husband’s return and my daughter turned to me and said “Mom, I preferred it when it was only the two of us.”

That was difficult to hear but not because of me; because of her and what we have been putting her through. She doesn’t feel too different from how I felt when my parents had issues in their marriage.

That was the time when I started bottling things up; when I stopped allowing myself to feel and to let love find me. I went through periods of clinging to the wrong people, often bad boyfriends, who did not deserve the attention I gave them.

Funnily enough, the times when I found myself in good relationships were times when I wasn’t looking for them; times when I didn’t NEED anyone. That’s when good people crossed my path and I allowed myself to SHARE with them.

I haven’t been ‘in love’ for so long. I have never felt that way about barely husband as we discussed it in our heartfelt conversation a few weeks ago. That saddened me because I long for love. I want to be in love!

Back to the point, the main difference with my daughter is the open channel I created with Raven that I never had with my mom, let alone my dad. I want her to be able to tell me anything and I want to take her feelings into account.

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  1. Aw it’s amazing what you’re doing with your daughter. I have a friend I was ALWAYS jealous of because her and her mom are basically best friends – telling each other everything and joking around and being happy together. I can only imagine you two are going to be that duo lol

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    1. MLYGhost says:

      I definitely try my best. I don’t want her to feel she needs to hide or keep secrets from me.
      I can’t forget to still be her mother and guide her through life but we are best friends and I want it to always be like this.
      Thank you for your kind words. ❤️❤️❤️

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  2. You are such a wonderful, special mother and Raven is in very good hands and lucky to have you. Together you face this difficult time and find strength while leaning on each other. Xoxoxoxo

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    1. MLYGhost says:

      Thank you! 💙💙💙💙💙

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  3. “I haven’t been ‘in love’ for so long. I have never felt that way about barely husband as we discussed it in our heartfelt conversation a few weeks ago. That saddened me because I long for love. I want to be in love!”

    This is what I want too. I miss that feeling so much.

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    1. MLYGhost says:

      I want to believe there’s still hope. I am trying to feel something with my husband but if it doesn’t work out, I wish to be able to allow myself to find and pursue it.
      I wish you find it too. ❤️❤️❤️

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  4. It seems like you have a great relationship with your daughter ❤ and that's amazing

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    1. MLYGhost says:

      I do and I am extremely proud of it. Growing up I hated being criticised for having a different opinion and I promised myself I wouldn’t do the same.
      We do agree on most things but we respect the differences too and through that comes a lot of trust. She doesn’t feel like she has to hide anything from me and I love that. ❤️❤️

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      1. It’s truly amazing ❤ 🙂

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