Seeing the back of 2016

As the year ends, I have to feel relief. It has been a very difficult year for me. I have actually had a few difficult years lately.

Started when the company I worked for shut down and I struggled to find a new job. When I did, it happened again! The struggle was even worse and I ended up with a crappy job getting seriously underpaid just to get money in. 

When I finally received a decent offer – my current job – my relationship started going downhill. It hadn’t been great; it hadn’t even been good for many years but it had been sort of stable average.

Yesterday I had another unexplained exhaustion episode. I had to force myself to get out of bed at 11am because the dog was crying. I haven’t cleaned the house or cooked anything that requires effort since barely husband travelled on Saturday. By 3pm, I was drained. I threw myself on the sofa and rested. 

Once again my daughter noticed and forced me to lie down there. She’s my angel, even though she’s going to hate when she sees I called her angel here. 

I just want to leave this year behind. 

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  1. nkdwhtguy says:

    Hopefully 2017 will be much better. There’s something about this year that has everyone saying they are glad it’s nearly over. I have yet to hear anyone say they are sorry to see 2016 go.

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    1. MLYGhost says:

      It has been a strange year indeed and I am glad it’s almost over. Good luck to us all!

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  2. I know what you mean and I’m still there Nd hate to keep up with the house for actually a few years now. How do I manage to hang in there for so long? I think my mind already has come to terms that this is no longer my home and has walked away, while my body physically is still here. Stress has aged me and exhausted me beyond words. I see it in the mirror and feel it through the chronic rheumatoid arthritis.
    I think you are just exhausted as well. You might have had a average steady marriage with some security and comfort but deep down you know how much is missing and that you are not truly happy. I think it is those very things that just naw away at us and leave us feeling drained as we contemplate the same crap over and over in our minds and never seem to find the resolution.
    Listen to your body and the signs and give yourself that time. Best wishes and have a happy New Year. Hopefully we can leave some of our issues behind with 2016 😉

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    1. MLYGhost says:

      I am listening but my body has a mind of its own and refuses to respond sometimes. That’s when I just give in. It doesn’t last too long but it’s still upsetting.
      I am. Dreading going back to work just because of this. If I’m home, fine and doing nothing and feel like this then when I have to get back to waking up early it should be hard.
      On the other hand, my mind is still not at ease and I think the episode happened when I started thinking about this week ending.
      Oh, well! My brain needs to respond!

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      1. It will all fall into place and just deal with it as it comes. I know you will listen to the signs and do the best you can. Stress does weird things to us and try to be good to yourself. ❤️🌹xoxoxo

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    2. MLYGhost says:

      And Happy New Year! We will get through it, one way or another! 💙💙💙💙💙

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  3. I feel you… 2016 hasn’t been easy for me. Not at all. I sincerely hope that 2017 will be an amazing year for you. It’s not going to be like: “Midnight strikes and at 00:01 your problems will be gone”, but taking a break and revaluating everything and everyone is definitely a good choice. I can’t express how much I hope that things will be fantastic for you in 2017. I wanted to say “average”, but as my mom always (irritatingly) says: “Think positive”. Which in my opinion is bullshit, but now I’m going off topic.
    I am really glad I found your blog and your support through my personal journey has meant a lot to me. In the end, what I mean to say is: Happy New Year.

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    1. MLYGhost says:

      Happy New Year, Georgia! 😂😂😂 That’s all fine. Even average would be an improvement!
      I hope you find your way too. We deserve better! I’m glad to have helped a little bit too and know that your words are always kind and touch my heart too. 😘😘😘

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