As the year ends, I have to feel relief. It has been a very difficult year for me. I have actually had a few difficult years lately.
Started when the company I worked for shut down and I struggled to find a new job. When I did, it happened again! The struggle was even worse and I ended up with a crappy job getting seriously underpaid just to get money in.
When I finally received a decent offer – my current job – my relationship started going downhill. It hadn’t been great; it hadn’t even been good for many years but it had been sort of stable average.
Yesterday I had another unexplained exhaustion episode. I had to force myself to get out of bed at 11am because the dog was crying. I haven’t cleaned the house or cooked anything that requires effort since barely husband travelled on Saturday. By 3pm, I was drained. I threw myself on the sofa and rested.
Once again my daughter noticed and forced me to lie down there. She’s my angel, even though she’s going to hate when she sees I called her angel here.
I just want to leave this year behind.