THINGS GET WORSE

When you think things can’t get worse…

My mom called me this morning with the news that my grandma had passed. She was my dad’s mother but he couldn’t muster the strength to call me and give me the news.

She was my last living grandparent and had been ill for about a month. She was 87 and her body gave up and started to shut down. Her mind was as brilliant as ever.

She was a wonderful human being and brought up 8 children in a life that had highs and lows. Trust me when I say the lows were extremely low, with some of my granddad’s business ventures crashing badly.

She was always loving and caring and my mom used to say she was more lucid and modern than her children, especially the sons, who had grown up to follow on my granddad’s old fashioned, macho man example.

There have been arguments at home because barely husband tried to use her illness to get me to do something I don’t want to. I will not elaborate today as I can’t really get myself to.

I cried again this morning when I got the news. I was at work and my team was great. I am sort of recovered now. Death, even when you expect it, doesn’t come easy.

She will be missed.

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10 Comments Add yours

  1. tarnishedsoul says:

    I’m terribly sorry.
    I know there are no words to make this kind of pain better, but I hope the comfort offerred warms you.

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  2. I’m really sorry for your loss… thinking of you ❤ ❤ ❤

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  3. VictoryInTrouble says:

    I’m so sorry for your loss. She sounds like a wonderful person. Hugs. ❤️

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  4. sorry for your lose! sounds like you had wonderful times and memories with her! hugs

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  5. I am so sorry and you are enduring so much right now. I really just want to fly wherever you are and just hold you tight. To let you cry while knowing that you are not alone and just be there to talk to you and offer support. I’m not sure if we can ever prepare for death and it is always hard to bear no matter what. My Dad’s was sudden but I also experienced illnesses where it was just a matter of time. None were easy and while your Grandma will be sorely missed, she will always be with you in memory and watch you until you meet again. Love you lots, my dear friend. Cry your tears and allow yourself to grieve and after that remember how strong you are and keep your chin up as often as you can. Raven will need your strength and will help you through. (I’d send hearts but I’m on the laptop xoxoxo)

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