Money, Money, Money

I woke up yesterday to an email from barely husband making a speech about money. Even though we kept our accounts separate throughout our marriage, it was always reason for fighting. It still is, it seems.  That was one of the things my tarot reading mentioned, that he would try to hurt me financially. He…

Spider

I am drawn to what you could call spiritual things. I believe in energies flowing around you that can tell you about what’s happening to you and give some advice for the future. It’s no wonder I enjoy so much the posts about spirit animals by my dear friend Rhapsody Bohéme. Thanks to her, I started…

I Knew It Was Coming

Barely husband has dropped his ‘nice’ pretense. I knew it would happen whe he realised I mean it when I say that I have no feelings left for him and I really want a divorce.  I went to his to pick Raven up and his expression wasn’t the best. I was joking with her and…

Fighting Through

I am fighting through the low today. I feel it trying to keep me down, like a clingy hangover. Maybe there is an actual slight hangover as I succumbed to a couple of glasses of whisky last night while dancing and singing with Raven to some of our favourite rock songs. We acted like lunatics…

Down in the Dumps

I crashed again last night. It’s one of those things you can’t really prepare for…  It’s been a hard week at work, with lots of problems and people in your own department not following the procedures you implemented to make their lives easier. Oh well…  I was already in a downer mood and then Raven…

At It Again 

On Saturday, I asked barely husband to buy food for his dog. With the face he pulled, I asked me to send the link to the website he buys it from.  The dog eats a special brand low in carbs that’s meant to be better for you.  When barely husband was talking to Raven yesterday,…

He’s Testing Me

I realised today that barely husband is testing me. Why and what for, I have no idea.  Yesterday, he texted me if he could spend the night here because he would be on a training course halfway to ‘our’ house. I said fine. He’s stayed before, always in the downstairs guest bedroom.  When I got…

Beauty

I would like to share some pictures I took from my flowers. They survive in spite of me and still bring me peace and joy.  I’m not sure which ones I’ll be able to take with me when I move. *sigh* It’s a price I have to pay.  Some beauty to brighten our days. 

THE CALL

Raven left on her school trip yesterday so barely husband would have no reason to call. He did. Just to chat.  Today, I’m sure he was expecting me to call him. I didn’t. 

PONDERING

I always tend to go back and analyse things, be it what I write in my posts or what happens in my daily life. I was very excited before the weekend started. A last minute cancellation gave me an early start to my tattoo, Raven and I had been enjoying the week off at home…

LONDON ATTACK 

I felt really terrible when I learned about the terrorist attack on London Bridge and Borough Market. Like Manchester, they are two places I have frequented before. Today I learned that one of Raven’s friends lost her dad in that attack. His name has not been made public yet but he was one of the…

Perspective

Just to make me feel really small and make my problems meaningless, there have been ‘incidents’ in London.  It’s speculation but seems to be a case of more terrorist attacks. Perspective.