Gladiator

Today I was tidying up my handbag a little. I have to do it once in a while to remove the million receipts I throw in there and to reduce the number of lipsticks I carry (let it be known half of them are Raven’s, who sneakily throws her make up in for me to…

FICTION X REALITY

This weekend, my first Wattpad story, Make Love Your Goal, reached 14K reads.  I’m already publishing chapter 10 of my second story, See You Again, but because MLYG is so personal and special to me, I had to revisit the characters and write a special chapter. I named it Six Years Later and allowed myself…

PATIENCE

I am feeling much better. After my retail therapy and getting rid of some of the bad energy, my mood has drastically improved and I’m back to my happy mamma times. I have to keep reminding myself I need patience. When I had my Tarot reading a few months ago, I was told everything there…

Retail Therapy and Baggage Dropping

I had to ask my daughter for a cuddle last night. She’s not very good with PDA but she awkwardly obliged. The result is that I woke up this morning feeling much better. I dropped Raven off at Drama School and came back to clean the house. It was a right tip as I had…

NEED

I am struggling this week. I really am. I’m trying hard not to be a moody cow or Debbie Downer at home in a conscious decision because of my promise to Raven. I often stop and take a deep breath, especially when my body is giving in to the exhaustion. It has worked but it’s tough….

DECISION

I have made a tough decision. In our informal custody agreements, barely husband claimed this year Raven would spend Xmas and New Year with him. She did spend last year with me, even if only because he chose to fly last minute to his parents after an argument with me. I decided not to fight…

DREAMS

In my previous post, I mentioned dreams, more specifically dreams that put me in a good mood that continues all day. Let me try to explain. I have started writing quick notes to remind me of these dreams. There has been a recurring theme to most of them. They are centred around having a relationship…

ANOTHER LOW

It’s one of those things you can’t really explain. I had a great weekend, things went better than I could have imagined with barely husband being civil, even nice, and Raven staying with me. Suddenly, out of the blue, I had one of my exhaustion episodes. It was Sunday evening and I was drained. My…

Truce

Barely husband made an effort last week to come and say goodbye to my mom. He went to dinner with us. It was awkward but we worked through it. As I explained before, he’s always liked my mother, often getting on better with her than with his own. We kept the civility along the week…

THE BIG O

Continuation of The Missing Piece… I moved on to The Missing Piece Meets the Big O, by Shel Silverstein. I had my mouth hanging open all through it. I related so much to everything. It starts with our Missing Piece waiting for someone to come along and take it somewhere. And loads come but there’s…

THE MISSING PIECE

Back in February, I received a message from a reader and fellow blogger suggesting that I read two books. They were kids books by Shel Silverstein called The Missing Piece and The Missing Piece Meets The Big O. I replied thanking him for the suggestion and promised to check them. I confess that I forgot about them…

Back to Reality…

…And it sucks! I came back from my wonderful holiday to a week of total chaos and utter hell at work. Wow. I hate when I get so exhausted that I start making stupid mistakes. My brain was all fuzzy, my brain cells completely fried and, by Friday, I wasn’t thinking anymore. I hate that…